I turned 36 last week.
I didn’t write a post like I did when I turned 35. You can read that HERE. I swore a lot in it.
36. What a year.
We lost Lloyd this year. He passed a year ago yesterday. I miss his love, humor and generosity. I miss feeling his belief in others that they could accomplish anything in life and succeed.
My mom has been gone 4 1/2 years now. That went by so fast. She used to call me every day on my birthday at the exact time I was born, 4:10. I’ve been missing those calls.
But while I mourn for the loss of those people I love and the problems of the world weigh heavy on my heart at times, I can’t help feeling a sense of happiness I haven’t had for quite some time.
Steve and I have been working incredibly long hours to pull off this renovation and we are in the final stages. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. The kitchen and bath are still down to the studs, but at least Phoebe, Steve and I got to move back into our rooms upstairs today.
I find myself in constant excitement and disbelief that I am actually getting to upgrade our apartment. I am picking paint colors, tile, hardware and lighting. I have windows that close and a backyard I can’t wait to have parties in.
Nearly 3 years ago I starting this blog complaining constantly about my inability to do laundry. Now laundry is the least of my worries. We don’t even have a dryer on site, but somehow it gets washed and dried and folded and put away!
I think living all in one small space has been good for us. I have learned how to be much more efficient with space and organization.
I started working for Braille Skateboarding to bring some of my blogging experience and social media skills to their brand. It has been so rewarding and fun. It’s taken some time away from my blog here, but it has also taken some of the pressure off of my own blog and social media platforms so they can be just more creative and fun without the stress of trying to work out how to make a living with them. You have to hit some pretty high numbers of followers and engagement to make a steady income with personal blogging and do I really want my personal life to go viral? Not really.
The girls are all doing well. Phoebe’s vocabulary is shocking at times and when you pair that with her ability to read people’s emotions, she’s quite the little personality. She got a little sick this weekend and had a fever. I am so happy to report she did not seize! This is the first time she has had a fever and not had a seizure for two years.
Ella is advancing in gymnastics and has found a new love for drawing.
Chloe is dancing three days a week and working really hard at school. She has been such a huge help during this renovation.
So now I am 36. Life is feeling pretty great. I am very grateful to those of you who have followed along this journey of ours for the past few years. You’ve inspired me to live better and dream bigger. I feel like I am right where I’m supposed to be.
xoxo from San Francisco,